I AM
i am
what I am
and
what i am
the world is
in conditioned
enculturated thought
the i am is lost
distorted
if i believe myself to be somebody
if i believe in what my culture tells me
then fear and separation
become
my I am
my identity
if violence
arrogance
greed
hate
fear
anxiety
insecurity
craving
belief
reside in my mind
then these
i project
as the world
yet here i stop
no more i say
suffering lies in all that
no matter my status
my comfort
i see that
the i am
i think i am
is suffering
the i that i have identified with
is searching to get away
craving to find a way
to escape
and i am done with self-perpetuation
of becoming
of being better
of running towards
our society's idea of success
I am done running
toward money and power
of thrills and platitudes
of self positivity
for in so doing
I see they are nothing
but phantoms born
in the endless escape
from the morass of sorrow and fear
i am done with that
i stop here
and finally don’t care
and so i see it all
i see that all beliefs
are thoughts
thoughts built from conditioning
nothing but
empty and hollow
illusions
thoughts
unchecked
ignored
spill and distort
measuring and manipulating outward
through the
prism of persona
an egosphere
perpetuating outwardly
a multifaceted labyrinth
of illusion
greedy and addicted
addicted to identity
to the role i play
afraid to let go
into nothing
but in stopping
i see that
in the nothing
i am
what exists in all
what exists in you
i let go of everything i am not
and am only left with
i am
see
it is not in being better
nor in gaining
that clarity and intelligence arise
it is in the complete
letting go of all illusion
all that is false
letting go
and seeing that
i am not this
i am not that
here a quiet enters
an immeasurable
immaculate quiet
here i see
i am wholeness
i am
freedom flowing
soaring
exploring wondering
timeless
measureless
being without trying
i am in
all flora, all fauna
all rivers,
lakes,
oceans
the striations of landscapes
the diamond spectacle of galaxies
all of it
all exist within me
as clouds rise and fall
as night and day blend
i breathe in and out
flowing in love
all is infinite
and i am
truth is
herein lies myself
in all ways
in all things
here the world is already transformed
for rather than seeing others
rather than conforming to a dysfunctional system
i see myself
and when i see myself in others
i can do nothing
but love…..
